I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.

I, Cisco Donovan, have become the asshole I tried so hard not to be.

Private Dick: Lipstick and Lies is officially on hold. Has been since September 30th, when I posted to Patreon. And I told myself I'd post here the very next day - and I didn't.

And then I didn't again. And again. And again.

You know that thing where you're talking to someone new, and you can't requite remember their name - was it John? I can't have been John, you've have remembered that, maybe it was James - and the question sits on your tongue, and the conversation carries on and somehow you didn't ask yet. And then at some point its too late and to ask the question is weird, too weird, you can't ask NOW, right, because that would undermine this nice new relationship you've just built?

Well it's been like that like this post. Every day that passes that you don't make that post makes it a little harder to post. It gets more embarrassing, more awkward, every time you think about it it. The weight of the post increases - and after a few weeks its easier just to feel like crap about it than to actually go on post the damn thing.

The one thing I thought was in my control with this project, the one thing I thought I could really promise, was good, clear comms. I could be present, visible, and honest. That's what I want to stand for. I'd like for people to trust this name and know that I won't disappear or bullshit or overhype, and that when I'm wrong I'll call it out early and hold myself accountable.

Sigh. What a shithouse year.

I still plan to finish Private Dick. I'm determined, at the very least, to put out a free build where all the wonderful work that's gone into it - the art, the music, the voiceovers (my god, the voiceovers!) - gets to be experienced by the world.

Something will happen next year. The trail is cold now, but the game is still on my mind. I just need to carve out a window of time to restart development and get stuff shipped.

So hang in there, friends. I'm sorry for being an asshole. I hope to see you in Spring.

Cisco