Dear friend,
Alan Watts once said: “Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.” I think this is why saying hi and introducing myself is so hard. But I want to try anyhow because who I am has very much to do with The Merry Fairy, which I can comfortably call a memoir game or an autobiography of sorts.
You see, I am Fairy. My given name is Laura, but I feel little connection to it and I do plan to change it officially in the future. I live at a farm somewhere in the middle of nowhere in the west of Sweden. My life is simple, close to the forest I love, and very remote. If I am not at my computer, developing The Merry Fairy, you can find me in the garden, growing a lot of crops, or maybe deep in the forest, gathering mushrooms. Sometimes, if it rains too much, I might be inside, sewing or knitting or crocheting. Or perhaps I might bake, or cook - I love to cook! Or... heh, there are so many things I love to do!
And so the first thing that comes to mind when I think to present myself to you is: Happy. I am very, very happy. I am happy that I get to discover the truth of my heart, every day. I am happy that I get to create, explore, nurture, and grow. I am happy to be able to appreciate the amazing beauty of this life of mine. Even when I am very sad, I am happy that I can embrace my tears and learn the lessons they carry.
My life has not always been like this and it took me about 40 years to get here. I was born in Romania during the worst Communist times possible. When I was about 19, I accidentally started an unbelievable career in video games. This allowed me to move to Italy and then later on, to Sweden. I got to work on many interesting projects, know a lot of amazing people, and travel the world.
But in all those years, my heart craved the forest. Yet I felt I could not allow myself to head towards where I needed to. I taught myself to ignore my intuition and listen to other people's opinions about how to live my life. I convinced myself that this is what it means to be an adult, and I did my best to appreciate a life that looked amazing on paper, but it was not right for me.
And then COVID happened and the world changed. I experienced the pandemic in a tiny, windowless office created in a wardrobe space, in a small apartment in Stockholm. In the darkness of my little room, I imagined a window I could open. This window would lead to a forest, a magical, gentle place that smelled of pine and felt like home. This is how The Merry Fairy started to grow in my head. And what gave me the courage to leave the big city, and move as close as possible to my beloved forest.
Today, I live in Fairyland and I feel that I have found my home. I learned to lean into my magic, and to discover my deepest, most powerful spells. There are many stories, fables and a lot of art inside of me, waiting to be shown to you. I am slowly getting ready to tell you that magic truly exists, and that you can find it in the place where your heart feels most at home.
The Merry Fairy is true and inspired by real life and real people. As a video game, I am building it as that window I deeply needed when I lived in Stockholm, slowly losing all my hope and dreams. And I need your help!
I made a small and peaceful Discord server where I share my daily life in Fairyland and the progress I am making with The Merry Fairy. The experience I wish to give you is gentle and soothing, as well as hopeful, inspiring and practical. And I cannot do this alone. Will you join my server, keep me company, give me your honest feedback and perhaps become my true friend?
Yours,
Fairy