Today I have not only good news, but also bad news. I had a hard time deciding to say until the last minute, but nevertheless... the remake of REFLEXIA is delayed indefinitely.
The reason is stupidly simple: I exhausted myself before I could finish it. The constant rush, the endless attempts to get the script to perfection, and at the end, just questions. What do I really want REFLEXIA to be? Why am I doing it at all? If I wanted to make my reflection in this black and white world, then... what should it be? Who am I?
Definitely an author who has forgotten everything about himself. And first of all, that she is a human being. Not the game development machine she wanted to think she was. She, unlike any other tool, has a life. But if you don't keep it alive, there's nothing to breathe into the story... and it will remain untold.
All this time I've been pushing myself hard and depressing myself. I kept myself from doing anything else but the remake, I squeezed every last drop out of my head, and I lived only for this project. Because I wanted to finish it quickly, and only then to start living. Just because I didn't feel accomplished and worthy without it. And as a result, my work, which once gave me a lot of pleasure, became a real pain.
It shouldn't be. And now that I've realized all my mistakes, I want to calm down and sit down for REFLEXIA again... but to do it in such a way that I don't regret anything in the process or in the result. And in the next comments on the development I want to tell how much I enjoyed working through these or those details, and not feel ashamed to explain what I had done in a hurry.
That's not to say that the remake will be out in five years or more. I still want to release it in 2023. But this time I'll try to take care of myself: I'll slow down a bit and try to work without a deadline. So... I won't promise any specific date. It's much better if I give it when the game is mostly ready.
In addition to everything else, I want to take a little break from REFLEXIA so I can come back with a fresh set of eyes afterwards. And that means... no, not a prolonged tumbleweed on all my social networks. I'm planning on doing a little project! All I'll say about it for now is that it will be a visual novel again, and it will also come out on Steam and on itch. Again, no, this is not the "good news" I was talking about at the beginning of this article. Well, it's kind of okay too... but this is primarily about REFLEXIA.
Tomorrow is a great day. Some people hate it, some people finally get lucky with a discount on their favorite chocolate... and for some, it's a great excuse to spend special time with the person they love. You know what I mean?
A date! The main character will be waiting for you. Or should I say Yandere-chan? Everything seems to have gotten mixed up in the continuation of that world, and now we don't know exactly how the roles have been split up. But at least one thing is clear: tomorrow you'll meet someone in a teaser on the remake's Steam page... or on YouTube, the place will be up to you. See you there!