The last couple of days have been a little rough and rather scary. I normally get maybe 3-5 people talking about a release, but for this one, I had probably 30+ telling me how shit the game was, how I fucked everything up, and for me to kill myself, which was honestly a little scary; I'm not going to lie. So, with that happening, I folded and did what they wanted and went to bed. Then I woke up the following morning to even more backlash, hundreds of people telling me how shit the game is, how much they hate me, how I should kill myself, and some threatening to kill themselves, which was even scarier, so I folded once again.
Which brings us to today. After speaking with a good friend, he advised me to just take the day off and not think about any of it. Which I did, well, sort of. I took the day off and watched a few movies, but I couldn't stop thinking about it. I kept checking my phone and seeing the odd message, some good, some really good, and some not so good.
Now, I know I said in the last post about "Fuck it, I'm going to do what I want to do and not let anyone influence me.". But even then, I was still talking shit because at the time, I was still thinking about what people wanted, and I couldn't get out of this mindset of trying to do the impossible task of pleasing everyone. I thought about maybe doing DLCs where the cabin MC could fuck Emi or another Emi game to please those who want Emi, but when it's all said and done, it doesn't matter; I'll never please everyone, and I've had to learn that the hard way.
You wouldn't believe how close I came to just saying fuck it and shutting everything down. I googled how to delete the game on Steam and how to delete a Patreon account, but when it's all said and done, I don't want to do that. I feel like the story has been lost a little, but that's just because people haven't seen what I have planned. I have up to episode 12 plotted out, and I'm really happy with some of the stuff that is coming up, and I know for a fact people are going to go crazy for episode 8!
Which is why I'll leave you with this final message. If you like the game, great, I hope you keep playing and supporting me (and I'm not talking financially; I mean with your kind words of motivation and just your general support. I try to hear everyone's feedback, whether you pay or not). But if you don't like the game, then just don't play it; leave and get on with your life. This shit doesn't need to be that deep. At the end of the day, it should just be an AVN to you and nothing more. I understand that people form attachments; I've got a few myself with some of my favourite games, so I get it, but those attachments should never let you get so angry that you threaten death on yourself or someone else. One of the people who got really angry with me and spammed across multiple platforms sent me a DM and told me how sorry he was and how that isn't the real him and he let his emotions get the better of him, and I really appreciated that apology more than you could know.
... One last message: upon reading through that, I realised I didn't actually tell you what was going on, so here it is. Back in 2022 I did a poll asking people if they wanted to have Emi in the cabin, and people said yes. I realise that I didn't actually specify her as an LI and that poll could have been interpreted as just "She visits, makes up with Hazel, and leaves," but I took it as "Let me fuck her!" And like I said, that was before her game had been released (or maybe it was just after the first game; I haven't checked the dates). Thinking about it now, even though you have the option to say no, it doesn't matter; that thought shouldn't be in her head to begin with, which is why I'm sticking to my original routes of just doing romance games. That's what I've done from the start, and that's what I'll try to continue to do. And like I said, if that upsets you, just don't play. I will be sticking to what I said yesterday about banning people that don't agree with me too. I realise I can't ban people on f95, which is why it's probably a good thing I never go in that thread anymore. I've heard it's been a real shit show in there.